I'd like to say, I'm burned out. That would be easier do deal with, understand and get beyond. But I'm not.
I'm in that no-mans land of 'I don't know'.
I do know that I've been dedicated and working hard for several years now on my clay. I've been working hard to produce a consistent body of ceramics work. I worked to improve my techniques to make better pieces with brightly colored and black glazes. Both types of glazes are some of the hardest effects to achieve consistently. I worked to have more pieces so I could make more sales. I worked on committees to gain more points to give my work a better placement in the shows. I worked on gathering and figuring out all the details of labeling, pricing, packing and delivery.
But it seems that the more I do, the less I know.
It was challenging, energizing and fun. But after a recent round of shows, I learned that having more to sell doesn't equal more sales. That better placement, more consistent work and fully stocked shelves didn't help, either.
Where do I go from here? Do I change what I make? Choose different colors or shapes or items to make? Give up on functional work and concentrate on sculptural? Do I lower my prices(which are already low, I'm told)? Or raise them to attract a different crowd?
No wonder I'm on Netflix instead of in my studio.
I'm in the Land of Don't Know and I don't like it. But I've been here before and moved through and onward from this territory. So I do know that this is part of the creative process ad I just need to be patient and trust it.